backpacking my way to australia

i started my blog only cause my friend khat-mal.blogspot.com told me to do so....cause he preobably thought i would write some interesting stuff...well that didnt happen anyway...and somewhere along the way this space became the means for me to vent out my anger against myself and not physically hurt me....yeah i'm quite the brave dude ain't I...but off late ....i dunno....just cant write specifics....well i've refrained myself from tht till now...or atleast i tried...n now it becomes increasingly difficult...n blogging fails to turn me on....to say so...

i need a break from me....maybe i should go to australia n hook up with a couple o babes(well its my dream so i get to choose!!!)...aktually thats what one of my friends did when he was having his quarter life crisis...n spent 4 months in australia.... i really dunno if i am hiving my quarter life crisis...i really don't care...to me its just a term...that...yeah basically i dunno what to do with it...

this post sucks...pretty much like every other post of mine.... man i still cant get those two chicks outta my mind...so what if they are make believe....isn't everything else about me...me myself n ...damn i cant even finish phrases with words that just fit....

i'm all messed up without aktually knowing what it is that makes me do all the wierd things i do...paranoia has engulfed me...n made a cog outta the already shrinking life that i have!!!!

what is it that i'm harping at...i'm not too sure..when have i ever been...aaaarrrghhhhhh